BANGS - like NOT-a-boss

Check out my illusion good looking straight bangs, when in fact, it's hideous!

So I've been nagging myself to get a professional cut for my bangs, since I used to cut my bangs- by myself. Better to be safer than sorry right? Bullshit. I cut I slash I mow, also better than getting cut by that aunty. Of course to get the desirable cut, I constantly looked into the mirror, dunno snipping for the nth billionth time.

I regretted cutting it. I'm so ashamed with my current China doll look which everyone assumed I'm trying to look cute when in fact! yes, I admit, I was aiming for something somewhat that moderately look cute, but not to this extend! OMG, 9Gag face.

I miss my long long fringe. I so darn regret cutting it in NOVEMBER 2011- by myself! Obviously people say I look good with bangs, covering my so called ''flowerhorn fish forehead''. Ffffffff you. I miss my hair, it was so....manageable...easy...long!

Anyways, wanna squeeze in a lil something something of my new resolution. I did mention in a previous post that I, AMANDA L###, will live life to the fullest, shall not have regrets or qualms of living in fear (acne, chipmunk voice.. fugly bangs?..) So guessed what, I MANAGE TO OVERCOME THIS OBSTACLE, well partially is truer, AND WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW for a part time, partially, in the weekend.

In the end, I didn't really ''went for the interview''. I filled up the form, I met up with the interviewer, talk with the store, which happens to be non other than.... COTTON ON in Pavilion. I know you won't understand by the partially interview.

Technically, it was a long queue for the interview because it is a mass recruitment thingy and I got bored like 30 secs into waiting so I thought, well, since I'm here, idle, might as well walk into Forever21 (wow, I'm 21! and I wanna stay 21!) and I did some casual shopping.

When I return to the place of 'happenings', the interviwer is still going on with the same guy! *roll eyes*. So I walked to P&Co and did some 'casual shopping' again. And even some window shopping at other stores and when I returned to the 'happening place', the interviewer is still having a go. Gosh! I made up my mind to walk away for good because I can't wait all day.

Obviously it is easier said than done as I was questioning myself "AMANDA, you said you wanna work and earn money. You said you will take more risk.." Obviously my mind and my body and my heart were having World War III.

Of course one of the reasons I didn't really go for it with enthusiasm is because I fear rejection and I'm lazy, and my mother opposes it strongly as well as almost everyone I know. I didn't know I was the "Incapable person who can't work''. REJECTION! and not even from the interviewer. Such loving relatives and friends I have.

Well, that sums up my 189343 episode of my life. Stay tune for more 2584569 episodes!!