Everyone lives are going off; like fireworks.

I never really knew how to write an opening for the post. Do you use the standard "Hello"... "Hey" or "Good day everyone." Wise man said the beginning should be interesting enough to attract enough curiosity for further reading. So how should I begin my post? Hmmm... Since everyone is subjected to curiosity, let me dwell in the world of friendship and love.

There is this guy which I'm quite fond of, probably fancy is a good term, that I will do anything, ANYTHING under the sun for Him. Now, this is a common trait for anyone who is blinded by love but I think I've cross the line of being too good to him.

First of, I'm not even sure he fancies me back, apparently I'm considered his best friend but c'mon, you're a guy,I'm a girl, isn't there any sparks at all? Can even different gender bffs stay BFF forever? Give me an example!!! I've never seen a living evidence before.

This morning I woke up and start chatting with my other BFF, a girl that is, about how I hate hate hate him and how stupid could he be... stuff like that and I told her I'm determined to get over him and find a China bf.

Yes, you got me right. I was actually very interested in catching a China bf in 2010. Too determined indeed but resulted in a failed lousy rejection because HE HAS A GF and the worst part is I KNEW HIS GF. C'mon. How the hell I know my friend is his gf, and I considered the girl a good friend of mine too because we shared similar taste in lifestyle. I wondered till this day whether he ever told her about my lousy confession. I still don't think so as the girl and me still keep in contact in FB. Wahahaha.

One of my new year resolution is to get a goood bf, a must must must. No more jerks, ham sap guai, morons or whatsoever.

One of the reasons I wrote the title above is not because of my failing miserable love life that is not shaping at all, but because 2012 has changed almost everyone I know. My friends are all moving forward in life, while I'm stagnant at this point of life.

I will try my best to live more, no more using the lame excuse of being afraid of the future, I'm too young, acne or my chipmunk voice. Live my life, get what I want and woohoo, I'm 21!!